I wish I

1) Could un-watch all the crazy Lady Gaga videos I watched today. because they are so disturbing and makes me feel uneasy

2) Had been consistent with my revision so I dont have this panic attack.

3) Was more careful with my spending. I owe every penny to my beloved state of Terengganu so I should spend wisely.

4) Had not merajuk. Because it melts my heart when he calls me in he middle of his night to apologise and talk and make me smile. Makes me miss him more.

5) Could stay at this weight regardless of the amount of galaxy cookie crumble that i eat. Not a pound thinner, nor fatter

5.5) Darn I wish i hadnt looked at the calorie count. a small bar of 100 gms is a freaking 2000kcal.

6) Am a better muslim and pray the five prayers on time and take more time to learn the Quran. Shouldn't we all?

7) Could read my feel good books, those shopaholic series instead of this crash course in cardiology.

8) Am with Mama and ayah in America now. And watch my one and only brother graduating :)

9) Am taller. So i can pull off a jumpsuit.

10) Whine less. Period.

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Graze Craze

A package i almost forgot about arrived today and it lighten up my gloomy day at work. Look look looookkk!

Its my first free box of grazeeeeeee :D with four wonderful treats i could totally use as pick me ups! :D. So cute its got a little personal touch to it with your name and little booklet and everything. its awesome :D

Whats in the box this week? - Sweet goan curry crackers, honey bee good, billionaire's shortcake and savoury roasted seeds.

So i first heard about graze when i went to Yaz's place last month. Its a service that sends you healthy, fresh, low calorie tidbits weekly/ bi weekly / forthnightly depending on your request right to your doorstep. So when ure feeling peckish, instead of eating your sinful muffins/ snickers bars, you can munch on them! wonderful! You can choose the day you want it delivered.

Yaz gave me a coupon and i signed up about 2 weeks ago. I remember purposely putting it in as to be delivered on every Monday so I'll get a little nice surprise when I get back from hospital first thing in the week. And it was totally a good idea I would give myself a pat on the back if i could! :D

the first box is free when you claim a coupon. The second one is 1.50. The subsequent boxes are at normal price which is 3 pounds i think. You can tell them in advance if you wanna go on holiday that week so they wont send you one. Or you can change from weekly delivery to forthnight or bi weekly etc, totally up to you. You can even choose what treats to get from their chioce of 100 or so nuts/fruits/diet cookies. But i like surprises so i didnt choose, and let them pick for me this week ;) And i have to say they made a good choice they had me at first bite!

So guys if any of you would like a free box of graze, just gimme a holler, ive got 3 coupons for 3 free first boxes!

Stay healthy folks, Love always

Ps- Thank you Yazira!

Pps- I really should ask graze for a little comission for advertising them ;D

Rainy Monday

A day's work in a clinic can be quite demanding. And i dont mean physically so much. But you can get emotionally wary. You see patients come in with a disease you cant cure. You see young little boy with gorgeous blue eyes and curly golden hair smiling to you and telling you you smell like strawberry, jumping around happily one minute and screaming and crying the next after you gave him three immunisation shots. Oh and the look he gave with that teary big blue eyes! You see old grown big men cry over the death of their loved ones. You see all sorts of things. And you cant help but to empathize and feel. It's just little things but these little things do get you down sometimes.

I guess i just have to learn to dissociate my feelings and my work better. Empathize but not feel. Be stronger and look on the bright side. And start saving the world, one patient at a time. Chin up!