tibe-tibe teringat kat Anas.. the other day at the cafe, he asked wheather or not i believe in Karma. i said yes. what goes around comes around. if you do something good, u'll get something good in return and otherwise. its like yin and yang. black and white, hot and cold, everything has the balance. life is justified, and fair..
remember i told you last week was among the best week i ever had, the bbq party, madly in love feelings, birthday celebration and all.. well, this couple of days back i guess is the payback..
1) i have family problems. conflicts, dilemma -and no mum and dad is not getting a divorce. its about my brother. and also my dad, my mum..the whole big family, its about expectation, probabilities, hopes, dreams, ruining ur second chance, and most of all, about failures... and me, im stuck in the middle, not knowing where do i stand in the whole situation whether i should remain silent, or be the peacemaker. and one thing is for sure. the pressure is now on me to build back up a shattered dream.
2) my grandma is sick, very sick.. shes in her early 70's.. she is now in the intensive care unit of Hosp. Kuala Terengganu... mum called yesterday, she said. 'kakak, doalah bnyk2 for her, hope for the best..' i know better than her assuring words- do not to hope for the best i might just be shattered to pieces if somthing bad happen. I told myself ' prepare for the worst'
3) he said somthing to me last night. i know he is right. it hurts. i just dont know what is the right thing to do. i told myself over and over again i was such a fool to fall in love. and when the only person that could make u stop crying is the one who makes u cry. you just couldnt seem to stop crying....
i thought you said you never wanna hurt me, you just did. and worst of all, its not even your fault, its mine, for falling in love with you..
" its like yesterday i had everything and everyone i love aroud me. n suddenly, its slipping through my fingers, one after another...''
''im sorry''
i know u are
''its alright, im okay''
and i know im not..
and life doesnt seem all that fair anymore....
5 comments:
lyla..
geez, i dont know wat to say, but just bear in mind that u're not losing everyone that loves you.. u still got friends..ok?
yeah.. it's undeniably painfully annoying. but time will heal the hurt.
mardiana, but the pain doesnt measure up to the happiness.. its waaayyy to much to bear with.. i used to believe life is fair, not anymore.. nevermind, you'd never understand..
tnx neway.. =)
aini, yea, i know ive got frens, tnx...
::saba ek kiddo....
assalamualaikum laila..igt lagik x akak nih? hehe..juz happened to drop by ur blog n read tis article.. let us ponder on this Quranic verse.. hope it makes u feel better.. Allah knows best =)
216. boleh jadi kamu benci kepada sesuatu padahal ia baik bagi kamu, dan boleh jadi kamu suka kepada sesuatu padahal ia buruk bagi kamu. dan (ingatlah), Allah jualah Yang mengetahui (semuanya itu), sedang kamu tidak mengetahuinya. (Al-Baqarah: 216)
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