i wish i could be normal

but im not. i am my own person.. a little loola in the head sometimes..

something doesnt feel right. idont know what..but something..ive been having bad dreams for three nights in a row. why do i have to dream about a schwan's-cell-looking eel and a giant worm chasing me in the bath tub when im taking my bath? it looks like a giant sperm and it scares the hell outta me,i woke up instantly everytime.

why wont this flu go away?

why dont i feel happy now that its november; my suppose-to-be favourite month, despite having finishing all my important exam?

and why oh why, do i feel like crying?

i miss him terribly.. :'( terrible, horrible, miserably...