sooner or later its over

i had a dream yesterday. this was the kind of dream that you know you're dreaming but u just sort of let it flow and see what happens next. in that dream i was on a hospital bed covered by a blue blanket, about to be cut open, im not sure what operation was that gonna be. i dont remember seeing anyone. mama n ayah had to be there somewhere but all except the beeping sound of machines were very vague. the doctor was wearing green operating robe with cap and mask on. he put tubes to my arms and i was given a gas, to be anasthesized. i suddenly panicked, started crying and felt so suffocated. the doctor told me to take one deep breath and when i did, one deep, loud inhalation, everything went pitch black and the last thing i heard was the continuous sound from the machine indicating my heart beat had gone flat... i was dead

the next thing i know my chaletmate woke me up for subuh prayers and thts actually quite wierd cause i was the one who usually wakes them up.

scary kan?

fatin said i was just restless and probably feeling a bit down thus the dream, but i assure you my current state of mind is that of sane and considerably happy and optimistic. no mood swings, no pms nothing. so the dream was unexpected. and not to mention scary.

but well dreams are just dreams right? probably too much of house or greys or scrubs.

ok, moving on.

interviews are over!! yeay! of all id say my favourite interview was ireland followed by cambridge, then notts and soton : im praying so hard tht id get to any. i nak apply rcsi n aust jugak kot. everyone is talking bout hteir 5th choice. some want to put pharmacy, some biomedic. no plans yet from me but if things really get bad, i might have to start thinking too. mech eng maybe? at ucl? :) (as if i can get there)

yt came yesterday. they were exceptionally nice this time. nothing much just advices, concerns, and few gentle reminders.

bangsawan is inches close. sapph is doing ok i think. for my part, i hv to work on the translation script pronto! tnx to michelle its almost done. shes so good at it i thought she took Lit. :D

"Too long left with nary a glance,
Shattered is thy master's heart so deep,
True to the fate of fortune's wheel;
Missing in daylight can be healed, perchance,
Missing at night, we can only weep,
And a soul thus must we heal."

how about tht? *raises an eyebrow, smug face* heheh ok ok i shall save the rest for later! i also have a feling tht costume dept is gonna make a controversy the night of bangsawan nnt :D *excited* we shall see. shant we? :)

love,
lyla