SEM 1 - been there done that

*BIG grin*

semester 1 dah habis! and all i could say is that over all it has been a good one. there is of course room for improvement in every acpects - esp. my studies.. but hey, i guess im doing okayh (ok, not good)

here's some telltale pics of last semester's story...

well there it goes..

CREDITS

Milo and Yaz .......... for always standing by my side

Pn. Kat, Dr. Bano, Mr. Hanson, Mr. Zabed, Mr. Vroege (hot) Ust. Maliki .......... for teaching

Nad, Dayah, Fada .......... for rocking P-38 like crazy

Hajar, Husna, Fatin, Alissa, and all the gorjez girlfrens of mine .......... for being my gossip frens

Anas, Sani, Jo and all the other boy frens .......... for being wacky and spreading the aura around

Sapphireans .......... for making other houses willing to kill to be in Sapph!

Mr. Jamal and my 'family' members .......... for that night

YT .......... for telling me whts not on the paper and hopefully this wud make me strive for a better result nxt sem *Sigh*

Pn. Rog, mak cik sapu sampah, abg betulkan air cond, warden, matron .......... for doing what you all do hehe

Zul .......... for just being you

and everyone else yg tak ter mention.. sorry.. evryone contributed to the merriment as well as sufferings thruout the sem!

LOVE YOU ALL

anywhere but here....

its 5 days before the holiday begins.. i cant wait.. since exam was over weeks ago, i mcm dah xde mood nak absorb sume lesson in classes... i want a break! gimme a break!! nak balik! nak cuti! nak pg holiday! nak shopping! nak pg cinema! nak hang out with friends! nak hang out with him!

monday-today

tuesday-class

wednesday-class again

thursday- end of sem dinner

friday- class!!!!!! c'mon let us go back already!!!!

saturday- parents day!! home at last... cant wait!!!!

i wana post my review and thoughts on the whole 1st semester of my life here in this lovely beringin valley (god it sound posh! wawawa) tp skrg the sem hasnt ended just yet.. wait eh?

and,

dear time, can you pass by me ever so quickly?? pleaaaaseeeee???

-out- -out- -out-

sleeping with the lights on..

tibe-tibe teringat kat Anas.. the other day at the cafe, he asked wheather or not i believe in Karma. i said yes. what goes around comes around. if you do something good, u'll get something good in return and otherwise. its like yin and yang. black and white, hot and cold, everything has the balance. life is justified, and fair..

remember i told you last week was among the best week i ever had, the bbq party, madly in love feelings, birthday celebration and all.. well, this couple of days back i guess is the payback..

1) i have family problems. conflicts, dilemma -and no mum and dad is not getting a divorce. its about my brother. and also my dad, my mum..the whole big family, its about expectation, probabilities, hopes, dreams, ruining ur second chance, and most of all, about failures... and me, im stuck in the middle, not knowing where do i stand in the whole situation whether i should remain silent, or be the peacemaker. and one thing is for sure. the pressure is now on me to build back up a shattered dream.

2) my grandma is sick, very sick.. shes in her early 70's.. she is now in the intensive care unit of Hosp. Kuala Terengganu... mum called yesterday, she said. 'kakak, doalah bnyk2 for her, hope for the best..' i know better than her assuring words- do not to hope for the best i might just be shattered to pieces if somthing bad happen. I told myself ' prepare for the worst'

3) he said somthing to me last night. i know he is right. it hurts. i just dont know what is the right thing to do. i told myself over and over again i was such a fool to fall in love. and when the only person that could make u stop crying is the one who makes u cry. you just couldnt seem to stop crying....

i thought you said you never wanna hurt me, you just did. and worst of all, its not even your fault, its mine, for falling in love with you..

" its like yesterday i had everything and everyone i love aroud me. n suddenly, its slipping through my fingers, one after another...''

''im sorry''
i know u are

''its alright, im okay''
and i know im not..

and life doesnt seem all that fair anymore....